It's Been A While

Name: Kassy
Age: 21
Subject: Update

So, it's been a while since I have written anything on here. In fact I should have read my last blog to see how long it really has been. But I am just going to do a little updating.

I live at home. I have my own room now. I am MOD at my work. And I now am in possession of a laptop computer.

Is that good enough?

Well. I don't really know what else to say. I have kind of been a little more then a little stressed out lately. I work, constantly. And I have to deal with my family. And as much as I love both, it can get pretty stressful.

Work. Well, work is work. I do my job. I have to listen to drama. And I do it well. I try my hardest, however useless it seems. But I love my job. It's fun. I like...most...of the people I work with. And the rest, I deal with. I try to be as nice as possible. But sometimes...it's a little overwhelming and I feel like exploding. It's not even just my coworkers. Sometimes, having more responsibilities at work can be exhausting. Especially when it comes to dealing with customers. Complaints, obsessive projects, and wrong locations of sale signs. All turn into a big ordeal of why can't I have this sale, and if you don't give me it, I won't return. No, no one has ever actually told me that to my face, but I am sure that they think it.

Family. Well. They are...family. It's hard to deal with them sometimes. Well, ok. Mostly just my little sister and brother. My parents...are easy enough. It's just...I don't know. A lot to handle. Always feeling like I'm not good enough and if I act like myself, they will tear me to pieces. And when I say myself, I mean myself. As in my kingdom citizen self. As in my Jesus Loving Heart....self. But I deal. Or I do as good as I can.

Is life tough? Oh yeah. But I try my hardest. I haven't really been spending as much time with God as I usually do, and I think that is partly because...I am afraid. Getting too close. I don't really know. Once I get close, I back away. Is that normal?

I don't really know.

Eh. It's ok. Life will get better....I hope.

I have faith that it will.

Well, TA TA for now!

Kass