Between A Rock And A Hard Place.

Name: Kassy
Age: 20
Position: The title.

I am officially in a place that I never thought I would be in. How naiive. I want to go to Bethel. But my mom doesn't want me to. Why you may ask? Because of the negative things people have written that she has found on Google. It's like, what am I supposed to do? I know what God wants for me, and I am always going to choose God over my family. And I know that sounds harsh or crazy or something. But it says you will not put anyone above God, so I don't. Not even my family. I do however love my family dearly. Like they are right up there. Just not above. I appreciate my families concern. I just see no point in being concerned. I am not killing myself. I am going to an amazing school that will change me for the better. It's just hard.

I don't want to have my family think negative things about me, but at the same time, I don't really care what they think. It's like, I love my family. But I know what's right for me. I'm not making a mistake. I am not going to be "brainwashed" and I am not stupid. I know what I am doing. I know that God loves me and I know I still have a lot of learning to do. But I know in my heart where I am to go. I feel that I am meant to go to Bethel. In my heart of hearts. That it is right that I applied. And now, due to my family, it's like doubt and fear has crept in. I dislike it very much so.

God is my strength. He is my hope. And he is my future. And I just don't see how people can't see that. I don't know. I just am at a place where I have to fully and completely lean on God to give me strength and perseverence. Because this is going to be a tough fight. And there could potentially be plenty more blogs of me complaining. But I love God with every fiber of my being. He is my life.

God Bless.