Saturday, June 12, 2010

Another Year.

Name: Kassy
Age: 21
Topic: Rejection.

So, all of you know...I applied at BSSM. Unfortunately I was...

DENIED

And you know. It's ok. I found out a while ago...but I just got to writing a new blog. At first I was hurt. Because my heart was set on going. But sometimes...God's plans just....overrule....yours. And I am okay with that.

So here I am. Another year in Astoria...or really....I guess I should put more updates...

I am moving out of my apartment still. Why you may ask? Because I can't afford my rent anymore. It has become too expensive. So...I am moving in with my mom. Whoopie!

Well, truly I am excited. Because I am blessed to have a family that will bring me in and let me save money for when I get to move out again...which may not be for another year. And I get to decorate a room! Which is exciting. Because it's going to look amazing! I am super psyched.

So, another year in my home town. Am I excited? Sure. Because apparently God wants me here still for some reason. Why? I honestly don't know. For reals. SO I am pretty much flying by the seat of my pants.

I was going to go on a tangent about rejection and how I feel rejected and ignored a lot...but then I realized that I would be pretty much just throwing myself a pity party. I do however want to talk about what I have been feeling lately...if you can handle it.

Lately...I feel like my emotions have been out of control. Like...crazy out of control. I have been oversensitive...and....excuse my french...super duper pissed off....A LOT! Especially today. I don't know why. Or how. Or even when. It's just like....I have been so upset lately. I don't know if it's because I feel ignored. Or not wanted around. Or what. But I have just been super upset. I don't know why. And really....that's mostly it.

I am done.

God Bless.